Daddy’s Hot Sauce

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I could not take it any longer. The medicine was not even working at all. I took it before I arrived here at the hospital and yet the feeling was still the same. It’s been months since my first visit to a small hospital in the countryside and since then I’ve tried myself to take care as much as possible, but there are some instances which I could not avoid at all.

“Shit!” I internally curse while caressing my forehead as I cannot even stare at the place for a long time. The cloudy surroundings were anywhere and all I can feel now was to throw up any time.

I heard machines beside me and this time whispers of different people around me. I tried to look at them but I cannot see their faces clearly and with that I just closed my eyes and did not bother anymore.

My vision turns out clearly and near to me I saw a boy sitting on the enormous stone. He’s wearing a white suit. I smiled ’cause I see someone on that boy, so I walked toward him and my smile could not even taken away.

“Hello, there,” I said and sat beside him.

Oh, his scent was really nice. I want to hug him ’cause the smell of baby powder was present on him, which was my favorite. He said nothing, instead he looked at me and smiled sweetly.

How I love his eyes and lips was so perfectly shape. I do not know how old he was, but one thing I know was someone was like him, but I don’t know exactly who it was.

“Tell me, are you tired?” he suddenly let out his words.

I noticed how sharp his words were and that made me smile even more. As I looked at him, I noticed his age was around five to seven years old, but I’m amazed at how he asked questions to me.

“Well, sometimes I’m tired, but that doesn’t mean that I cannot do it anymore, right?” I simply answered his question. The boy then touched the pond, and it wrinkled as it showed another scene.

I saw myself lying down on the bed and the doctors were in a panic as my heartbeat was going down.

“Now, tell me again if you want to be there or not.” an innocent voice but his question was meaningful enough for me as I look at myself at the pond and as I turned my sight to the boy, everything went black and slowly my eyes opened.

“Thank God you’re alive!” a familiar voice was now whispering on my side.

I furrowed my brows and said, “Jane?”

I felt weak and could not even gather myself together. I could not remember what happened, but thankfully my friend was finally with me.

“What happened to you?!” she caressed my hair and looked at me and the rest of me. “The doctor said you’re pregnant. Is it true?”

Her curiosity made me smile and nodded my head twice. I felt a lack of energy, but this time I know she’s happy for me. I can feel it.

“Congratulations! so, you mean it was him?” she giggled that almost caught the attention of the other staff in the room.

“Yeah.”

The moment I answered her, a man stood by her back and then smiled at me. Jane noticed the confusion on my face and she sparingly smiled and said something to the man who has a little man in his arms.

“Uh- I am sorry not to tell you this, he’s Dave.” Jane formally introduced him.

He smiled and shook his hand on me. “So, you’re the… aw!”

Jane widened her eyes on him and with that, the man didn’t continue his words on me, instead he and his little boy went out of the room.

“Don’t mind him. You know everyone was being silly, and that was him.” Jane said while shaking her head and rolled her eyes.

I smiled ’cause it’s been months since I saw her and this time she’s with someone she truly loves. I know she’s happy and I can see it through her eyes.

“Did he know about this?” she curiously asked and sat beside me.

I can the worry on her face and I cannot lie in this situation because Jane is smart enough to know what happened by looking through my eyes.

I lightly shook my head and said, “No, and I do not want him to know about this.”

Jane quickly stood up and crossed both of her arms in front of me. I know this is another interrogation from her, but I’m tired right now.

“Emily, don’t play with this. Anders may know about everything, especially the baby inside you.” She emphatically said and pointed my belly.

I know the fact that it would not be easy to tell him the truth, but I’m frightened by it. The result might be the opposite thing that I was expecting it to be, and besides, expectation might kill your sanity.

“I don’t know, Jane. He might not want this child. I know exactly who he was, but damn it!”

Suddenly the pain in my belly was striking once again, so Jane panicked and this time she called the doctor. All I can feel is the pain in here.

“Argh!”

I cannot help it but to shout in pain and so when the doctor arrived, they injected something in me that made me feel numb and slowly I closed my eyes by the thing they put inside of me.

***

Anders was at the office and by that, he could not even expect who it was.

“Daddy!”

He let out a heavy sighed and did not mind the boy on his side. He could not focus on the work because of the little boy inside his office, so he even called his assistant, George, but the boy cried when he was about to take away from Anders’ office.

“Mom is right, you are truly handsome.” the little boy stared at him and praising while he watched him doing something about work.

“Shut your mouth because I am working here.”

Anders said in an authoritative tone of his voice. I knew this one to him as he had never had a long time together with this boy.

“Alright, Daddy, I will stay here and zip my mouth.”

The boy sat on the couch and just do nothing while Anders was busy doing the works that he needed to finish for tomorrow’s meeting with his new client. He was secretly smiling while staring at the boy ’cause he remembered himself when he was just a child. An innocent one, just like the boy sitting on his couch.