Mistake with the Alpha

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POV

"With our mate out there?" Hort asked me.

I ignored Hort and kept on glaring at him. I didn't mind breaking the contract by hurting Drey. I'll surely make him bleed even if I don't kill him.

"You two should stop being childish!" I heard Sam shout.

She was looking at us. I know she feels so weak with the way she's doing and it's all my fault. I wouldn't because of what happened between us make her fall into the trap of this dangerous alpha blood. I might not be able to make her mine forever, but I'll make sure to protect her till she finds her mate.

"I'm no one," I said in tears.

This word tore my heart. I know she's right because none of us is her mate. But it hurt deeply to hear her say that. I looked at her with a sad face.

"I am so sad here and I don't want you two fighting again so that the world will call me bad luck. Don't pour salt in my wound" she scolded.

I felt so down. This is all my fault. I know I needed to console her. I glared at Drey for the last time before I moved closer to her.

"Can we talk?" I asked her.

I thought she was going to say no but my calm Sam nodded her head. This made me look at Drey to leave. He didn't argue with me like I thought, he just left.

Sam sat down and tapped the floor for me to sit, which I did.

"I'm not blaming you," she said softly.

My mind became relaxed at what she said. I wondered why the moon goddess didn't give her to me as a mate.

"Don't feel guilty. I knew this would happen one day. It's just that the reality hurts more than the thought of Jay" she said sorrowfully.

I wanted to pull her closer to me but I restrained myself, not knowing what to do. I just watched her as she cleaned her tears with the handkerchief she held. I could smell Drey on it but I didn't say anything. Not that I wasn't pissed, it's just that I don't want to hurt her any more.

"I know Sam. Even though you are not blaming me it's still my fault. I was the one who led you on" I said with guilt.

"No" she shook her head. "What we had might not last. I didn't regret everything we shared. You are the best thing that happened to me Jay" she said holding my hand.

I was really happy at what she said. I pulled her to myself and hugged her tight. I was so sad and relieved at the same time.

"You have to be happy Jay. That's all you could do for me" she said softly.

This word couldn't help but bring tears to my eyes. This woman is in pain which I'm the cause of but she's still asking for my happiness. Isn't this better than a mate?

"I can't be happy if you are not" I told her with a shaky voice.

"Don't worry I'm stronger than I look. Once you are happy Jay, I'm also happy" she said looking at me with a stiff smile.

I nodded but tears flowed down my cheeks.

"C'mon don't be a crying alpha" she said, cleaning my tears with her hands.

I chuckled and hugged her tight.

"Don't squeeze life out of me" she groaned.

I released her and realised she was smiling. I couldn't help but kiss her. I didn't know what came over me. I kissed her deep.

"You shouldn't do that Jay, your mate will feel it" she scolded me when I broke the kiss.

"I don't mind," I said, still wanting more.

She slapped my arm. " Don't be silly," she said.

"Will you truly be fine?" I asked.

She nodded severally and smiled. I know she's really trying hard to be fine. If I had a choice I would break the mating bond and turn to her but I can't argue with the mating bond.