Chapter 185 Warm, Ive always been
Zhanyan slept for a long time and dreamed of silence.
She cried silently and called her to call her, but she left without looking back. She was walking all the time and the silence behind her was chasing her.
As if there was no end, she wanted to call out the dream of Zhanyan aloud, stop, wait a minute… … …
The child is chasing you, how can you ignore it? !
When awake, I looked at the time and it was early in the morning.
I went to the kitchen and poured a cup of cold water. My stomach was empty, but I couldn’t eat anything.
I don’t know when the refrigerator was full of food, and there was a cooked food on the table. She frowned and looked around her eyes.
Someone has come into her house?
Strangely, Raymond has already returned the spare key to her.
But there will be no one but him.
So, he was here, but she didn’t know it.
Worried that she would starve herself, she did not have an appetite, but for the sake of not wasting food, she ate some.
But all I thought was silence. I don’t know if she has arrived in Los Angeles now.
Have you seen that… Your own mother?
Will you be scared silently, will you go to a strange environment and dare not sleep?
There are too many, too many, too many, too many, too many, too many, too many, too many, too many, too many.
Because the child is not with her, she has no idea whether it is good to be silent or not.
It’s very weak, isn’t it? It is.
The same is true for the next day and the third day.
Zhan Yan locked herself in the room and locked the door from the inside. She looked through the photos she had silently taken, and each one smiled so happily.
Holding the doll that used to be silent, it seemed that there was still her breath on it.
She regretted it.
Regret let silently leave her side.
Zhan Yan is not as strong as he imagined. He thinks he can survive. After a long time, he will pass.
But this is not the case.
One more minute, one more second, all miss.
Every time I miss it, the position of the left atrium hurts…
What do you want? There will be no pain here.
Late at night, it was so quiet.
She curled up on the sofa barefoot, looking at the phone, she really wanted… really wanted to call the Zhang Lian, said she regretted, let him send back silently.
Send it back to her.
However, this is simply impossible.
There are still people who need to be silent more than she does. That is the silent biological mother, that year no matter because of the reason, that person abandoned the silent.
However, it cannot be changed. Between her and Silence, it is the relationship between mother and daughter by blood.
Without that person, there would be no silent birth.
Tears in my eyes fell again, dripping on the back of my hand, moist.
Until there was a slight sound, Zhan Yan’s eyes quivered and looked up at the clock.
Three in the morning.
She went barefoot and walked step by step towards the door.
It’s not an illusion, there is someone outside the door.
Even through a door, she knew who it was.
Is he… Always here?
The other two nights?
Sitting on the floor with her back against the edge of the door, she curled up her legs, wrapped her hands around her knees, and chose silence.
The people outside the door knew that there was only one door between them.
But did not knock at the door, did not move, accompanied her, so quietly accompanied her.
For a long time, for a long time…
The clock is moving, she does not move, nor does he.
Until the soft voice came, so light, so fine, but he could hear it clearly.
She said, I have never been a lucky person.
She was never, never lucky.
So this time too, doomed to loneliness, doomed to a person.
Without silence, her life seems to have no meaning and she loses everything.
“Am I really stupid… hurt silently, what should she do if she doesn’t see me again…”
“She has been crying. I have not turned back. I am really bad, still so bad.”
So bad, so rude.
Just like in those days.
Therefore, a woman like her is doomed not to be blessed by God.
“I have nothing left.”
Everything, does not belong to her.
But after the three knocks on the door, she heard the voice of the people outside the door, just as warm and tender as when she first saw it-
“Warm, I’ve always been there.”
Raymond, never left.
She said that she had lost everything and nothing belonged to her again.
But forget, looking back, there is always a person who has never left.
Seven years old, eighteen years old, up to now, even in the future, as long as there is Raymond, it is her harbor.
“Some people, can’t stay. Some people cannot be driven away.”
And some people are always lucky.
Because she has all the love and warmth of that person.
But I don’t know it.
Zhan Yan cried, this time, not because of silence, not because of other, just because of him-
Raymond.
Whether it’s to show one’s face or to admire one’s warmth, this life is enough, isn’t it?
The door opened and the light and shadow grew longer and longer.
She stood there and looked at the people outside the door. In the dim light, Raymond seemed to smile but not smile. She was the only one in her black eyes.
… …
At five o’clock in the morning, the sea breeze was very strong, and the waves beat against the rock wall and made a sound.
He just carried her behind his back and walked for a long time.
The man with his hands around his neck refused to let go. His head rested on his shoulder and his eyes looked at the horizon at the end of the darkness. There was no word or person.
But this moment is the closest moment to each other’s hearts.
He carried her across the long coast beach, listening to the sound of the sea breeze, waiting-
Sunrise and dawn.
Everything will have a new beginning.
And his warmth came back.
The little warm person who will only think about him, think about him and always rely on him finally came back.
Quiet time, always don’t want it to go fast, but want it to stay forever.
Waiting for sunrise, but for the first time so reassuring and warm.
Sitting on the beach, leaning against his arms.
Even if the sea breeze is blowing cold, he is there, as if the left atrium is always warm.
“Can you see the sunrise?”
“Yes.”
“What if it is cloudy?”
“Yes, too.”
The sun rises every day and will not disappear because of cloudy days.
Cloudy days will always pass and dark clouds will always disperse.
And her sunshine has always been there.
Seeing the light of sea level rise, I think at this moment-
She has the world.
Because the best in the world is by her side.
Never far away.
… …
It was already a week before Don Ciser returned from Paris.
Knowing that he was silently taken away by his biological father, he looked at Zhanyan, but his jaw was warm and smiled:
“I respect your decision.”
No punishment, no question why, but blindly respect her, believe her.
Zhan Yan smiled. She knew that no one would blame her.
Send away silently, cry and repent after pain.
But at the end of the day, it was a blessing.
She only wishes that everything will be all right for her children.
“I just blame myself for not being with you when you need it most.”
“Xize…”
“I know, he will always be there.”
Tang Xize smiled and nodded. He knew that even if he was not here, some people would take good care of her, accompany her and guard her.
It seems that it is indeed time to let go.
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Tang Xize never wanted to make Zhan Yan unhappy and did not want her to be embarrassed.
Just this time, let him try to let go.
“Yan Yan, I said I only want you to be happy.”
He looked into her eyes, every word, and asked seriously-
“Tell me, do you feel happy now?”
Just tell him whether he is happy or not.
Zhan Yan did not avoid the man’s eyes. This time she would not hesitate or be timid.
“Happiness.”
These two words alone mean too much.
Hearing her say so, Tang Xize smiled. She said happiness, which is true happiness.
It turns out that that person can really bring her such a smile.
This is good, this is good.
“I thank the person who made you happy.”
Because of that man, he did what Tang Xize could never do.
Because of that man, he has reached a position that Tang Xize will never reach.
Therefore, he thanked that person for his reappearance.
Four years, Tang Xize’s four years, should be over.
“Xize, you are also in this happiness.”
This happiness does not belong to her alone, nor does it just bring her to admire the night.
There is silence and Tang Xize.
At the location called the heart, there also lived a man named Tang Xize.
His appearance once lit up her world.
Thank you for showing up.
… Dividing line…
Silent things are in the past. It is unnecessary to know that Zhanyan has begun to adapt to a new life.
As mentioned earlier, Raymond said she would move back to Claudia family.
However, Zhan Yan seems to be still hesitating, and the reason is unnecessary and unclear.
Because now there are things hidden in my spare heart, which are not very good things.
Ling Feng came back later and later during this period of time, but he knew that he was not working overtime.
That time she went to his company to find him. She wanted to send him dinner so that he could work overtime when he was full.
Later, I came to the company to listen to his colleagues before I knew that he had not worked overtime during this period of time.
He got off work at five and left.
But every night when he came back, he said that he was very tired of what he had done overtime in the company tonight.
But it turned out that they all lied to her.
“Are you Ling Feng’s girlfriend? I see that Ling Feng seems to have a big client these days, a woman with a little money, who said she wanted to make investments and sometimes asked Ling Feng to be a consultant.”
Women… … …
Is that the woman who called last time?
“Ling Feng may want to catch big customers and make more money. But I still have to remind you that it is always good to have multiple minds.”
Ling Feng’s colleagues said so, but they were redundant but did not want to think so in that direction.
And tonight, he came back even later.
One in the morning.
That is to say, after zero, this is a night out?
“Why haven’t you slept yet?”
On weekdays, when he comes back at eleven o’clock, she is already sleepy.
And tonight, somewhat unexpectedly, I saw her on the sofa, waiting for him.
“Where have you been?”
“The company works overtime.”
“… I have been to your company and you are lying to me.”
This time, redundant didn’t set his words again, directly said what he wanted to say.
He’s lying to her.